As I said in Day 1... I'm an easily forgiving type of person. In most cases. Everyone who knows me knows that I'm a pretty straight forward type of person. I tell you what I think and many times I like to portray that I have all the patience in the world. Those who know me well clearly know that my fuse is not nearly as long as I portray it to be. One thing that can infuriate me is if you mess with my family. It doesn't matter if it's my immediate family (husband, son, etc) or if it's some one a little more distant. Regardless, that's the number one way to get my goat. That is one thing I have a hard time forgiving.
So with that being said, the person I need to forgive is my biological father. Without giving you all the details I will say that he was not there growing up because he choose not to be. We grew up without him and not only that but we never really knew much about him. He was abusive to my mom and just wasn't there. As a girl growing up in an unsteady life... it was extremely hard not to have a dad. It was hard my entire childhood. I never knew how to answer the question, "where's your dad?". I still don't. I still have a hard time and usually try to avoid the question. Even though I clearly know that the past can not be changed.. I admit that I still have some hurt and pain inside and I judge him for that. I need to forgive him and move on. It's just so hard when he's still having problems getting his life together and I still have wounds.