Day 4 - Something you need to forgive someone else for?
As I said in Day 1... I'm an easily forgiving type of person. In most cases. Everyone who knows me knows that I'm a pretty straight forward type of person. I tell you what I think and many times I like to portray that I have all the patience in the world. Those who know me well clearly know that my fuse is not nearly as long as I portray it to be. One thing that can infuriate me is if you mess with my family. It doesn't matter if it's my immediate family (husband, son, etc) or if it's some one a little more distant. Regardless, that's the number one way to get my goat. That is one thing I have a hard time forgiving.
So with that being said, the person I need to forgive is my biological father. Without giving you all the details I will say that he was not there growing up because he choose not to be. We grew up without him and not only that but we never really knew much about him. He was abusive to my mom and just wasn't there. As a girl growing up in an unsteady life... it was extremely hard not to have a dad. It was hard my entire childhood. I never knew how to answer the question, "where's your dad?". I still don't. I still have a hard time and usually try to avoid the question. Even though I clearly know that the past can not be changed.. I admit that I still have some hurt and pain inside and I judge him for that. I need to forgive him and move on. It's just so hard when he's still having problems getting his life together and I still have wounds.
What do you need to forgive someone for?
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Stephanie, I am sorry to hear this. You are strong to think about forgiving him. I can not even imagine the hurt you have been through. Sometime it seems when people can not fix/love themselves then they can not love others, we have a few in our family (extended) also. Stay strong and know I am always there for you. You are such an amazing mother to Jeffie and I know that you love your family to no end <3
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel... My dad is in my life now, but my first memory of him is from when I was about 10 years old. He's in my life now, but it's still minimal... He doesn't call or see Isla as much as I'd expect a grandfather to.
ReplyDeleteI'm at the point now where I just don't care. It's his loss.
I too need to learn to forgive my Dad. Abandonment, harsh words and just emotional distress have put this huge wall between us and I haven't spoken to him in almost 5 years now.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel.